Postpartum Stories

Postpartum Mom Recovery with a Baby in the NICU


When I think about the narrative that can be left out of the postpartum and motherhood story, I think about a NICU mom and her family. ⁣

Everyone has a heavy heart for a NICU baby, rightfully so, but NICU moms need extra love too.⁣⁣

The Choices of a NICU Mom

A NICU mom is choosing whether to rest and let her body heal or venture down long halls to sit in uncomfortable chairs and (maybe) snuggle her child with cords. Sometimes the snuggling isn’t even an option and she watches, through an isolet, as she hopes her baby hears her voice and feels her love. ⁣


A NICU mom, if choosing to nurse or pump breastmilk, must learn to do so with an audience of medical providers in and out. ⁣

A NICU mom changes her blood-soaked Depends in too many public bathrooms. ⁣

She knows the hospital cafeteria menu and any food options nearby. ⁣

This mom doesn’t get herbal bath soaks and is doing all her self care in a sterile space void of the comfort of home. ⁣

She sleeps to the sound of beeping devices and continual stat checks through the night. ⁣

When we talk about postpartum, May we not overlook the voices of the NICU mom. ⁣

The complexity of a NICU Stay⁣

I had but a small taste of being a NICU mom. While our week inpatient felt long, it was so short in comparison to families we saw and families we know. The NICU experience often spills over into the struggles of maternity leaves and insurance needs, sibling care, and more. ⁣

NICU mom- you are heard. And we will work together to make sure your voice is part of the story when we talk about postpartum and motherhood.

Nicu mom story

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Being a Heart Mom


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baby with tetralogy of fallot surgery

Sometimes you forget that anything big is looming in your future.

Sometimes you lay awake just trying to breath because it’s all you can think about.

Sometimes you see your child and know that she will overcome everything- beginning with the medical difficulties of her infancy.

Sometimes you see your child and just beg and plead that she’ll see next year and that you’ll see her grow up alongside her siblings.

Sometimes you read stories of victory over similar medical situations and you feel so invigorated for the life of conquering ahead.

Sometimes you see the face of a little one who didn’t make it and you crumble inside trying to feel those feelings in case they should ever become your reality.

It’s this ongoing mental and emotional roller coaster. It’s the torment of the mind. It’s trying to decide whether to cling close to every single moment or to try to shut off the deep rooted emotional ties in fear that it would cause any hurt to hurt more deeply.

You know when you got into a new relationship and it was a ton of fun and you soaked it all up… but then you realized you were getting very close and intimate and the fear of loss took over? Do you remember the tension of wanting to go all in and yet wanting to step back in case it didn’t work out? That’s the best metaphor I’ve come with to describe the period of waiting for big medical intervention for your ill child.

From the outside you wouldn’t have any idea that her body isn’t functioning like it should. From the outside she looks like the majority of babies you would see. But inside? Inside it’s a balancing act of time. Giving her enough time to grow to optimize a surgery but not giving it too much time- because if we did her body would suffer.

open heart surgery at 5 months old

Looking at our family from the outside you probably wouldn’t see that we are daily picturing our child on a medical table through a massive operation. From the outside you wouldn’t see the fear of a faulty move of the doctor’s hand or a sterilization procedure not being followed and welcoming infection. Yet these are the things I see every day. Sure, I see her smile and I hear her coo. I see the way she tracks us across a room. I see the signs of her hunger as she anticipates her next bottle. I see the way she warms her brother’s heart and calls out a new beauty in all of us. But in the stillness, usually, I also see the worst possibilities.

I’m not sure if this is “normal” anxiety or heightened anxiety. I really don’t care to label it and most of the time I have found it really powerful to experience it and talk about it with my husband and closest friends. But some days I wish it would go away. I know there is not one child or human who is exempt from something terrible happening… but when you have something so big in the future, something that seems so complex, something that will probably go just fine but if it doesn’t would be detrimental to your family, you think about it more often. You see it. It creeps up on you in the night when you’re snuggling. It causes you to lose sleep, to cry yourself into headaches and you have to fight for the ability to bring the energy you want to your day.

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heart warrior kids

To the families who are carrying heavy hearts over the wellness of a child- I see you. It may be evident from the outside or it may be hidden, but I see you. I see the way you pull your strength daily for your family. I see the way you balance going on as normal with being cautious. I see the way you tug back and forth between faith and fear. I see the way you celebrate other’s victories while also feeling the sting of others losses. I see you and I validate your feelings. They are raw and real and to many on the outside, they are scary and unsettling but they are yours and they are important.

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Oh and momma- if you’re feeling anxious and fearful- here’s an anxious-filled hug from me to you. I’m not sure if we were “chosen” for this or if this just brought out a new side of us, but we are in it together.

UPDATE: Our little Sage had her open heart surgery March, 2019. She did well and we spent a week recovering in the hospital. If you’re a heart mom and need to chat about it, drop me an email or DM on instagram. I feel you momma.


story of a CHD baby with tetralogy of fallot doing well